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Christian smiled. Perversely, he loved the fact Elena made a point of not kowtowing to him. For years, since his phenomenal burst of commercial success, people had fallen over themselves to agree with him. No one dismissed him.
He liked that Elena treated him like an ordinary man. Neither a commercially astute businessman whose every pronouncement was gold, nor a sinister outsider to polite society who could never be completely trusted because of his murky past.
And he liked knowing that no matter how pointedly she stood up to him, he just had to touch her and she went up in flames.
‘Treasure? Hunting through junk, don’t you mean?’
She shrugged. ‘If you can’t cope I’ll see you later.’
But Christian wasn’t going anywhere. He was fascinated, watching Elena’s assessing eye as she prowled the antiques centre. He’d developed an interest in antiques himself, drawn by the idea of a bygone world of grace and beauty that was everything his early life hadn’t been.
Elena moved through the place, her sharp eyes spotting the same mantel clock he did. It belonged not in a dusty bric-a-brac emporium, but in a collector’s home. Then she paused by a tiny damaged table. He hadn’t noticed it. Now he realised how finely it was made. With restoration it would be beautiful.
Elena had a good eye. It intrigued him to think they shared an interest in beautiful old things.
But what kept him at her side, helping her shift a lumpy chair to get to an old trunk, was more than an interest in antiques. She almost hummed with happiness as she explored. Her enthusiasm drew him.
She was appealing when she challenged him, standing so haughtily, refusing to cave in despite her father’s pushing. But when she was happy… Christian was surprised at the cliché that sprang to mind. But it was true. When Elena was happy she glowed.
He wanted to bask in that radiance. Her lips curved in an excited smile as she ran her hands over the trunk. Christian wanted to be part of what made her happy. He wanted to make her smile.
How long since he’d wanted to do that for anyone?
It was a relief to see her like this. Yesterday, with a few casual words, she’d unleashed a wave of bitter remembrance. More than that, she’d evoked guilt.
You don’t own me.
You haven’t bought me.
Even now his blood iced at the words. At the implication he was stripping away her control of her own life by agreeing to this sham engagement.
Did she really feel disempowered?
Acid swirled in his belly and rose, filling his mouth.
His fight wasn’t with Elena. It was with her father. He’d imagined Morrison’s daughter would be as shallow and selfish as him, eager to triumph in the role of high-profile fiancée to a rich entrepreneur. Instead he’d found a woman whose idea of a good time was hunting for old wares.
You haven’t bought me.
Christian’s jaw clamped so hard pain radiated through his skull.
He knew, exactly, what it meant to buy someone. To own someone.
The words, so casual, so meaningless to most, were honed knives. They sliced into the darkness that was his past and his very essence. He felt the ice-hot slash, not to his face or his ribs this time, but to his heart. It heaved as the blackness of the past rose up.
‘Christian.’ A hand touched his and he looked down. Elena’s eyes met his. Stunned, he felt again that spark of connection he’d told himself he’d imagined. This time it was a welcome sizzle of heat, cracking the ice in his veins. ‘Come and look at this.’
Did she know? Had she seen the murky shadows engulf him?
Christian straightened. Of course she hadn’t. No one did. They were his to bear alone.
‘What have you found now? Jewellery?’ He forced a smile to his face and watched her blink. That was better. He preferred Elena distracted rather than questioning. ‘It has to be something glittery to make a woman so excited.’
‘Don’t pretend to be a sexist beast. We both know you’re not.’
‘Not sexist?’
Their gazes locked and, extraordinarily, Christian felt as if her assessing gaze saw too much. ‘Not either.’
Which showed how little Elena knew about him.
Because of his prison record most women viewed him with trepidation, even if mingled with a good dollop of excitement. They fantasised about the bad boy, especially one who had wealth to smooth his way. If they knew the full details of his past they’d shun him. That had never mattered. He didn’t care about the approval of pampered society women.
Yet with Elena, for the first time, he almost wished he were a different man. Except that would mean denying his past and he would never do that.
She linked her fingers with his and tugged. Christian was surprised at how good that felt. ‘Come on. I want your opinion on this. It reminds me of something you have in that mansion of yours.’
* * *
Despite his teasing grumbles, Christian was good company. Better company than Elena had expected.
This was the second day they’d spent together doing something other than fall into bed. Not that they’d ever needed a bed. Heat danced through Elena’s veins. It had taken two visits to Christian’s house to make it as far as his bedroom. Even then they hadn’t made it to the mattress.
When he’d suggested a weekend together she’d thought they’d be naked. Instead she’d found something even more distracting.
A man who switched off his phone to spend time in the wilderness, introducing her to some of the extreme sports he enjoyed.
A man with patience and humour, who took time to ensure she enjoyed herself.
Christian didn’t care about keeping up appearances like her father. All morning he’d helped her fossick amongst collectables and downright junk. He hadn’t blinked when he’d got dust on those exquisite casual clothes or she’d asked him to heave furniture out of the way.
Elena wondered what he’d make of her choice for the afternoon. She led him through the gate of the National Trust property and into the garden.
‘More antiques?’ He looked around with interest.
‘You haven’t been here?’
‘I’m from Melbourne, remember.’
Elena felt a fillip of pleasure at introducing him to one of her favourite places.
‘It’s a heritage house and garden.’ Said like that it sounded boring and she’d thought hard about bringing Christian here.
But the Everglades was special. When she’d first visited she’d been young enough to wonder if there were fairies in the wide sweep of bluebells that clustered here in spring. Later she’d been enchanted by the peace and beauty of the rambling gardens. After the fraught atmosphere at home, this had seemed like Paradise.
‘You’ll enjoy the house. I know you like art deco.’
‘I sense a theme. It seems a favourite of yours too.’ Elena heard his smile but didn’t look up. Already she spent too much time under Christian’s spell.