Chapter 29 – Alpha Alexander and Omega Scarlett Novel by lS Barbosa

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Scarlett:

“Do you want to eat something?” Alexander asked, entering the room with a tray of food in his hand, his tone so gentle that a crying baby would have quieted down.

I shook my head in response, not really feeling the need to eat anything Hell, I was exhausted enough as it was; I didn’t want to eat anything, and my mind was in a complete mess anyway. The man himself could tell, I knew that, however, seeing as he was still trying his best to try and open a conversation, I knew not to close the door now.

He has been doing his best to get me to talk to him, and knowing that I was just choosing to stay quiet, I was honestly surprised that he was yet to give up. His eyes met mine, studying my expression before he sighed “Scarlett, you need to eat to regain your strength…”

“You do realize that you’ve said the same thing over ten times, every single day, for a week, right?” I asked, stopping him. He pinched the bridge of his nose before sitting on the edge of the bed. He set the tray on the bedside table, wanting the food’s smell to at least get a reaction from me. Anything to indicate that I was hungry. In reality, I knew that I should have been. Unless it was the IV or a few bites of whatever Alexander would bring in to me, I was refusing to eat almost everything. However, I knew that it was due to being tired, insecure, and hurt. The pain that I was feeling was one that I never felt before, not even when I found out that Luna Katlyn wasn’t my real mum, or when I found out that I was nothing but an omega who they sent to live alone.

This pack has seen a lot, and one of the things that were seen was my downfall. I went from being the Alpha and Luna’s daughter, theoretically, I didn’t know that they weren’t my parents, to being an Omega, the lowest of ranks. Then one day, I went from being the Alpha’s best friend to being his nemesis. Finally, from his Luna, to a rejected woman. I didn’t know why my fate was laid out as it was; however, I truly did hope for a better ending for me in the end. At least something to be worth the patience that I’ve forced on myself.

“Scarlett, just a few bites. I know that you’re not feeling it, and I know for fact that you’re doing this because you’re in pain; but for fucks sake, please don’t give up on yourself” he begged, taking my right hand in both of his, holding it tightly. It upset me more that I only saw this side of him because he saw me almost being abused and probably getting killed. How he had found me the other night, I didn’t even know, but I never really bothered to ask. I didn’t really care if I was going to be honest.

“Can I ask what you’re benefiting out of all this?” I asked, shaking my head in question. I knew that I had shut my emotions off. I didn’t care what he would say at that moment. He could want to kill me or want me to kill him, and it would be my rational mind, if I can call my mental state anywhere near being rational, that was talking and would be reacting “don’t get me wrong, but the two of us know that you don’t really care about me”

“I do”

“You do not I said, shaking my head at him “one minute you do, then the second you see me smiling, you just say or do something that would break my soul. Finally, when you’re sure that my heart is broken and that I am Just waiting for my time to either come or to leave, you just try and make me…”

“Do you want to leave?” He asked, stopping me. My heart ached, and frowning, I waited for what he had to say before coming to conclusions or responding I he man already knew that I tried to leave, twice, and I was more than willing to do so again if I wasn’t on this stupid bed, barely able to move.

“Ian help you if you really are insisting to do so. I know that you wouldn’t be able to take care of Anastasia on your own, at least, not unfunded. I can manage…”

“I don’t want your money, Alexander. You’re just going to end up…”

“I have done you enough pain to hurt you with a matter of money, Scarlett. I know that if you choose to leave, it is because of what I did to you, therefore, I will ask one more time, (Jo you want to lea-le?”

“And if I say yes.'”

“Then you are free to leave and I will not pressure you into trying to make things right. Ye-;, I will try to fix our friendship enough for us to be able to co-parent our daughter; however, I won’t be that barrier that prevents you from finding your life” he said, keeping his eyes on mine. I knew that things couldn’t be THAT simple. This was Alexander that we were talking about; however, I chose to stay quiet as I looked down at my lap.

“But if you do choose to stay…” he said, breaking my train of thoughts, making me frown in confusion “I know that you may find that this could be somewhat absurd, and you may be too angry with me to want to accept me. However, if you think that I am worth one percent of your time, and a small chance, a literal one percent chance, I would love for us to try and start again”

“Alexander…”

“I am not looking for an answer today or tomorrow, Scarlett. I won’t let you leave before I know that you’re able to get on your feet. But I still want you to think about it then when I know that you’re strong enough, and you’re sure of your decision, I won’t be holding you back no matter what it is” he said, giving me a weak smile. He looked at Anastasia’s crib for a second before getting up from bed. His eyes were genuine, and for the first time in years, I saw the man that I fell in love with long before I knew that the two of us were mates “try to eat something. Your body still needs food to recover, and considering that you’re still on an IV, you’re losing more weight than you should”

Alexander didn’t wait for me to say a word before he walked to the door, probably knowing that I was too lost in my thoughts, and mostly because he didn’t want me seeing him as broken as he was. However, his racing heart and shortened breath despite keeping his posture strong and controlled told me that what he told me must have been the hardest thing that he’s been forced to do.

First, because it meant that he was accepting the fact that I would be taking our daughter with me, and that she wouldn’t be here by his side like he wanted. And second, because he knew that the second I chose to leave would be the second that his wolf breaks. The man’s wolf was still in control even after the rejection, and that was because he had Delilah in his arms and because he could see me. However, if he chose to let me leave, and was still willing to co-parent, that only meant that the two of us would be spending time together, time that might have us living feelings that we ‘chose’ to agree to let go of.

I ran my fingers through my hair before laying down on my back, thankful for the painkillers that I was on, knowing that they were the ONLY reason why I was able to do so; otherwise, I wouldn’t have been able to move a muscle.

“Think, Scarlett, what do you really want to do?” I asked myself, thinking out loud, my chest aching. The air felt tight around me, and despite being alone in the room, I couldn’t help but feel like I was being strangled. The fact that I knew that this time, I wasn’t alone I had a daughter to think of, and that alone was enough to put a burden on my back as I didn’t want my choice to end up harming her, and on the other hand, there was MY life, one that I knew that I had to live healthy; otherwise, I knew that whether or not I left, I would end up losing my mind if it was toxic, and that was not something that I wanted.

“What are you going to do, Scarlett?” I asked, shaking my head as I stared at the ceiling “and how would that affect your life and your daughter’s in the future?”

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