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I wasn’t sure who her mom was, but I needed to see that lady. The advice Allegra gave me was beyond remarkable, and it made so much more sense than what other people had told me.
“Thanks,” I smiled, grabbing my purse. “I will be back later…. I’ll call you.”
“Oh! Make sure you take the spare key,” Allegra said, quickly fishing through a drawer in the kitchen. “Here you go.”
Taking the key with hesitation, I furrowed my brows. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah. Never know when you may need to use it. Now, go see James, and don’t be too harsh on him.”
“Wish me luck!” I called over my shoulder to which she replied, “Break a hip, or don’t.”
Forty- minutes later, and after fighting through traffic, I made it to James’ building and was in the elevator heading up to his office. I wasn’t sure if this was the best idea I ever had, but then again, sleeping with my best friend’s father hadn’t exactly been the highlight of ideas to have.
My heels clicked against the floor as I stepped out and made my way towards his office, Evette’s eyes catching mine as I watched her brows furrow. “He’s expecting you.”
How would she know he was expecting me?
Had he told her about us?
Without questioning her, I nodded, giving her a small smile as I let a heavy breath escape me, and turned the knob, opening the door. James sat behind his desk in all his godly fashion. His eyes slowly raised to meet mine, and as they did, no smile followed.
I thought he would have been happy to see me. Especially since he was the one who asked me here. “Hello, Becca. Please take a seat.”
Business oriented… and here I was, hoping for something else.
“Hello, to you as well,” I replied, taking a seat across from him.
James’ eyes never left mine as he sat quietly, as if going over what he wanted to say.
“So–” I said, breaking the silence, causing him to finally smile. “What did you want to see me for?”
“I don’t want things to be bad between us, Becca,” he admitted, clasping his hands together. “I want us to be like we were.”
“Yeah, well, things kind of changed, James. Tally threw a fit… you allowed that to happen, and you told her we were nothing. We were just having sex, that’s it.”
“I didn’t mean it like that,” James snapped, catching me off guard.
“Well, that’s what you said. You could have told her anything else, but that was what you went with. How do you think that makes me feel?” I snapped back, shaking my head.
I honestly was hoping when I came here today things wouldn’t end up heated like they are. Perhaps it was too soon, though. Not enough time away had allowed us to speak clearly.
“I know,” James groaned, running his hand over his face. “Look, I’m not going to beg you to stay because that isn’t the kind of man that I am, but I will say I don’t want you to go.”
“I see. Well, why do you want me to stay?” I asked, crossing my arms over my chest. He kept saying he didn’t want me to go, but he never was clear about why he wanted me to stay.
“Because we have fun together. Not to mention incredible sex…”
Out of everything he could have said, that was what he was going to lead with?
Wrong answer. “So you want me to stay because you like the sex?”
“Don’t twist my words. That’s not what I meant—”
“That’s exactly what you just f*cking said, James.” I yelled in frustration. “God, I have no clue what you really want. I was allowing myself to feel something again. After everything Chad did to me, and yet… I was a fool because look at what has happened.”
James paused after my rant with a dumbfounded expression. “What were you feeling?”
Shit. Of course, he would want me to elaborate on that confession.
“It doesn’t matter, James. How can I feel the way I do when you can’t even stand up to others about what you want?”
“That’s not true,” he replied. “Don’t you dare say that because it’s far from the truth.”
“Is it, though?” I replied, shaking my head. “Because you let Tally dictate a lot.”
Taking a deep breath, I pushed to my feet and grabbed my purse. I was done with this conversation and done making myself look more of a fool than I already was.
“Where are you going?” He stood as well. “Becca, stop…”
“Why, James? All we are doing is fighting, and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of keeping secrets and everything else that is going on. I should never have let myself fall into a situation with you like that. Especially knowing there would be nothing from it.”
Before I could reach the door, he took my arm and spun me to face him, pressing his lips to my own. The taste of him in my mouth was breathtaking.
I wasn’t sure if I would ever kiss him again, but knowing I was right now was everything I needed.
“Don’t leave,” he whispered against my lips as he pressed my back to the wall. “Stay with me.”
Every part of me wanted to cry, but trembling, I had to find the will to move on.
“I can’t…” I replied, pushing back tears. “I want a relationship, James. I want someone who will love me, and it isn’t fair to either of us to continue on when that will never happen.”
“It can happen,” he murmured, catching me off guard. “I just need time.”
Of course he did. “Time for what?” I was curious to know his answer.
“Time for Tally to understand things better,” he replied, and with those words, my heart broke again.
“Why do you have to wait for your grown ass daughter to finally give you the go ahead before you can be with me–or anyone else for that matter? She is never going to be okay with this. She is never going to accept it. Therefore, we can never be together.”
The truth finally was out, and stepping back from me, he stared at me in disbelief. It was the truth, though. If he wanted to wait on Tally to be with someone, he was never going to be happy with another woman.
She would always want her dad and mom to get back together.
She would always expect him to come to her every beck and call.
Tally was a selfish bitch, and everything was always about her. So what was the point in James and I playing pretend that this could be more than it was? None of it made sense, and I couldn’t wait around hoping that it would.
Leaning forward, I ran my hand down the side of his face and kissed him deeply.
“Goodbye, James,” I whispered as tears slid down my cheeks.
Making my way back to Allegra’s, I kept thinking over the conversation with James. The last time I cried as much as I was right now was when my mother died, and I thought that was going to be the most painful thing I would ever experience.
Now, I wasn’t sure that was the case.
I had left James’ office under the notion we couldn’t ever be together. He made it clear he wanted to wait until Tally was okay with everything. However, that wasn’t going to work for me.
She would never be okay with us being together.
Opening Allegra’s door, I stepped inside and was met with laughter. The sound of the man’s voice wasn’t one I recognized, and I suddenly felt bad about intruding and not letting her know I was on my way back.
“Becca!” Allegra exclaimed with a smile. “You’re back so soon?”
“Uh–yeah,” I replied, giving her a half smile. “Turns out things won’t be worked out.”
With a small sigh and a nod, she turned her attention to the man next to her. “Well, Becca, I want you to meet someone. This is my brother, Neal.”
Neal turned to me with a pearly white smile and crystal blue eyes, and I couldn’t help but smile back. “It’s nice to meet you, Neal.”
“It’s a pleasure to meet you as well. I have heard a lot about you,” he replied, causing me to look at Allegra with a questioning glance, wondering what the hell she had told him.
“I didn’t realize that you were going to be here. I hope I’m not intruding on plans that you guys have.” I was wondering if it would be best if I packed my things and found somewhere else to stay, but Allegra spoke up quickly.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” Allegra laughed. “I didn’t even know he was coming. He is in town for a few days on business and surprised his big sister.”
“It’s true,” Neal replied with a hearty laugh that brought a warmth across my chest I hadn’t been expecting. Sitting here with them right now was like welcoming old friends or even coming home.
I enjoyed it, and as much as my mind was lingering on James, I couldn’t let that cloud my thoughts from enjoying the small time I had left in Miami.
“So, where are you from?” I asked, taking a seat on the loveseat across from them.
“I’m from New York City. I heard you’re attending Yale. Is that correct?”
“Uh–yes I am.”
“That’s impressive. That school is definitely difficult to get into,” he said, letting his eyes graze over me. “So, are you coming out with us tonight?”
Furrowing my brows, I looked at them, confused. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“I’m taking him to Velvet,” she said, giving me a knowing smirk. “Do you want to go?”
As much as I had fun with her and James the last time I was there, I wasn’t sure if it would be appropriate for me to go again. “I don’t know… if James knew—”
“Didn’t you just say that it didn’t work out?” Neal butt in, giving me a smirk that caused me to laugh as I hesitated in my response.
“Well, yes. I suppose that’s true.”
“So why not come out then? No point in sitting around sulking,” he said, as Allegra nodded in agreement.
“Neal’s right. If James doesn’t see what he is missing, then why should you sit here instead of enjoying yourself? No one is saying you have to go have group orgies or anything, but you can dance and have fun. Who knows, maybe you’ll find someone who can take your mind off things….”