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“Don’t take that tone with me, James. You have no one to blame but yourself. You’re lucky she stayed around this long. I have said enough…. If you want more information, you will have to talk to her. When she is ready.”
Allegra didn’t wait for me to say anything else before she quickly hung up the phone, leaving me with questions that needed answers.
Allison had stooped to an all new low and confronted Becca after having already spoken down at her through the evening.
Left in a state of disbelief, I stood there with my car keys in my hand, holding my phone.
“Son of a bitch!” I screamed, chucking my keys across the room screaming in rage.
Allison was the bane of my existence, and no matter what I did to make things work with Becca, this stupid bitch wouldn’t learn to stop.
Frustration and hatred filled me knowing a woman I had grown up with and loved at one point in my life had so much selfishness and pride in her she couldn’t let me be happy.
I had given her everything, and for the first time in my life, I found someone else to make me happy, and she couldn’t let me have even that.
Instead, she wanted more. She felt entitled to everything I poured my heart, sweat, and tears into because she wanted to fill some void in her heart that grew black because of her own greed.
There was only so much someone could take, and if I lost Becca because of Allison, I would never forgive her.
Allegra was right. I had no one to blame but myself.
Becca didn’t want Tally or anyone to find out about our little situation, but instead of listening to what she had to say, I was greedy and allowed Tally to find out.
I specifically went against what she had asked of me just so I could take her out and show her off as if she was something new I had bought.
How was I honestly ever going to fix that with her?
I was a grown man acting like a boy in high school instead of being the man she deserved to have. I could hope some other man could fill the place I was failing to keep. Yet, even the thought of that made my stomach turn.
I hadn’t meant to care for in this way, but every moment with her was becoming more and more addicting every day.
Becca.
Sleep overtook me not long after I laid upon the bed in Allegra’s spare bedroom. I didn’t realize I was tired, but in the end, I was more tired than expected.
By the time I woke up, the sun was high in the sky, and the filtered voices of Neal and Allegra came from down the hall.
Rolling over, I stared at the clock with a sigh.
My phone dead, and my mind foggy, I forced myself to get up and move towards the living room. There was no reason for me to sit around and be mopey. I had to find the strength to put this all behind me.
As I stepped into the living room, I found them both sitting on the sofa talking. However, as soon as I came into view, they became quiet and turned to me with small smiles upon their faces.
“How are you doing?” Neal asked.
How was I doing? I wasn’t even sure how I was doing.
Just lie Becca. After all, they won’t know the difference. Disassociation at its best.
“I’m fine,” I replied, shrugging my shoulders. “It was never anything serious.”
“You both may not have made it official, but it sure as bloody hell looked that way.” Allegra added, causing me to laugh.
“I’m done with it all, guys. It’s too much to handle, and this was not what I signed up for with him. He is amazing, and god… in bed, he was incredible, but I will go back to school in a few weeks. So it’s better to just end it now,” I finally said, getting everything off my chest.
Every part of me wanted to cry, but I couldn’t let myself do that.
I couldn’t continue to get upset over a man who was going to act the way he was. It was beyond ridiculous, and all I was doing was making a fool out of myself.
“You deserve better,” Neal said quietly as I met his gaze.
“Thanks, but I think it’s best I stay away from men for a while. Maybe one day things will become less complicated, but as much as I wish that was true with James, I know it won’t be. Allison will never let it go.”
“Ain’t that the f*cking truth.” Allegra mumbled, sipping her drink.
The comment caused me to laugh as I poured my orange juice and made my way towards where they were sitting.
“Anyway… like I said, I’m fine. Shit happens. At the end of the day, life is only ten percent what happens to us, and ninety percent how we handle it.”
“Oh, words from the wise?” Neal chuckled. “I like that saying.”
“Thanks. It’s my dad’s favorite saying.”
Thinking about my father, I contemplated going to see him. It was moments like this when I wished I was with him so he could hug me and tell me everything was going to be okay.
Even if he would give James a piece of his mind, hearing him tell me it’s going to be okay meant the world to me at the moment.
“Well, that’s wonderful,” Allegra said cheerfully. “Go get your pretty ass dressed up. We are going to have lunch and do a bit of retail therapy.”
Laughing softly, I shook my head. “I can’t… I just don’t have it in me.”
“Stop,” she said quickly, holding her hand up. “I’m not going to let you sulk around down here. This is Miami, Becca, and women down here don’t take shit from anyone. In a way, Allison is trying to get you to submit, and we are going to show her, and anyone else, for that matter, that you won’t play their games. Now, go.”
There was no arguing with this woman, and nodding my head, I rolled my eyes and headed back to my room to get ready. I wasn’t entirely sure what she had planned, but I had no doubt in my mind that it was going to be more than interesting.
After all, interesting was this woman’s love language.
There is no time like the present to change the path of your future. For if we live in the past too long, we get caught up in what could have been instead of setting forth what can be.
I didn’t think I would be able to get past what had happened, but as always, Allegra was able to get me through it all. She distracted my mind so I wasn’t sitting around, thinking about how what I desired to have with James could never happen.
“What do you think about these sandals?” Allegra asked as I looked through an array of sunglasses in a shop near the beach. Turning to her, I tilted my head a bit as I stared down at her feet.
“Those are actually really cute.”
“I thought so too,” She muttered before pulling her wallet from her purse and handing the cashier money. “I’m getting them.”
Looking around further, I tried to see if there was anything I could find I might enjoy. However, the more I looked, the more everything seemed to remind me of James.
“Becca, shall we all go get lunch?” Neal said, coming up beside me with a smile on his face. “Allegra said there is a cute beach place near here that has amazing fish tacos.”
“Uh, yeah, that sounds good to me,” I replied as my phone rang. “Let me just take this really quick.”
He nodded his head, and I slowly moved past him and pulled out my phone. Once again, James was calling me, and I wasn’t sure what to say to him.
Taking a deep breath, I pushed the green button answering the call.
“Hello?” I whispered as my heart fluttered.
“Rebecca–” he replied breathlessly. “Where are you?”
“Out, why?”
There was an exaggerated sigh from his end that made me roll my eyes as I stared out at the ocean in front of me. “Please don’t act like this…”
“Act like what, James? Don’t call me telling me how I need to act when you are the one who caused all of this chaos.”
“You know what I meant–” he replied quickly, and even though part of me knew what he meant, it changed nothing. Why did I have to be the one to submit?
“No, I don’t James. Please explain to me what you meant because you keep saying that I know, but unfortunately, I don’t. How am I supposed to know when you don’t explain?”
There it was. My admission of truth to him.
I didn’t know what he wanted or what he was thinking.
One moment, he was saying he wanted to be with me and was treating me like a queen, and then the next moment, he had me feeling like I was nothing but a complication.
“I mean, don’t act like you’re mad at me,” he replied.
“Mad? Is that what you think I am?” I asked.
“It’s obvious you’re mad, and I don’t understand why you’re acting this way when I’m trying to fix things,” he snapped with a sigh. “I’m trying to make things better.”
“Do you really want to make things better?”
“Of course, I do, Becca.” James replied with exhaustion. “I want you back with me.”
Turning around, I looked towards Neal and Allegra, who were laughing over something I hadn’t been privy to. Allegra’s eyes met mine with a smile.
She had been right about something… I shouldn’t let all the drama get to me.
“James, before you start worrying about things with me, you need to get your ex-wife under control. I won’t allow her to ruin my life because she has a vendetta against you.”
“Becca, I can sort her out, but you don’t need to worry about her.”
“James, she threatened to go to the f*cking media and ruin Yale for me. I won’t f*ck up my future because you can’t handle your ex-wife. How dare you tell me not to worry about her when she is threatening me?” I finally snapped.
It was a long time coming, but what did he expect?
I wouldn’t be sucked into the drama again.