Filed to story: The Rejected Werewolf Princess (Camilla & Tyson) by Didi Adeyemi >>
“There is no greater loss than losing you.” He was on his feet now and he crossed the length of the room until he was standing directly in front of me.
I looked up at him and the raw emotion in his eyes almost made me stumble. His hand reached up to cup my face and I knew I should pull away but I allowed him hold me. I allowed him stroke his thumb across my cheek softly and I allowed myself relax in his hold even though I knew I should be doing better.
He knew exactly what words to say and I felt them permeate the deepest parts of my heart.
It felt like we were in our own personal bubble and for once, I could forget everything that had happened and just do what I wanted to do which was be with him. I saw his eyes fall to my l*ps and there was a sharp tug in my lower belly.
“Ryker,” I breathed softly, “We shouldn’t.
It will get too complicated and the last thing we need is more complications.”
“There is nothing complicated about wanting my mate.”
“Ryker,” it was meant to come out as a warning but it sounded more pleading.
He leaned closer until our l*ps were practically brushing and I couldn’t even bring myself to pull away. The truth was that I wanted it just as much as he did.
“Let’s start over,” his l*ps moved against mine with every word. “While we search for the truth, let us start over. I want you Camilla and I don’t want to live one more second away from you.”
“This isn’t how to start over. If we were to start over then we would be strangers before becoming friends or anything more) We have a daughter Ryker, there is no starting over for us.”
“Then let me have you, in any way that you want me to. I am merely a footstool to be used at your disposal. I would rather be a speck of dust in your world than a king in a world where you do not exist. I love you Camilla.”
Everything was too much; the words, the feel of his l*ps against mine.
My head was spinning and this time I clearly knew that I was the one who bridged the gap between us when I k*ssed him. I knew that it was completely irresponsible and st upid of me to do that but I couldn’t bring myself to care as my hands wrapped around his neck…
His hands held my hips and pulled me flush against him so I could feel every ridge and contour of his b*dy as he ravaged my l*ps. I may have been the one who k*ssed him first but he was the one who was in control. He claimed my mouth with unmatched passion and I could feel every bit of emotion that he poured into that k*ss.
His fingers slid to my a*s and when he squeezed softly, I let out a soft moan. He used the opportunity to sl*p his tongue inside and as his tongue caressed my mouth, I could feel myself getting impossibly wetter and I knew that I wanted him- in my bed, in my heart, everywhere. I just wasn’t sure how things would play out if I did.
Suddenly, Ryker pulled away and he ran his hands through his hair while muttering the word f**k over and over again. He started to pace the length of the room and I could see that he was confused and conflicted. I had my hand over my l*ps that were still stinging and tingling and I didn’t know how to respond to the warring emotions inside me.
“I don’t want you to regret this,” Ryker said when he had calmed down. “You already regret it the first time. I don’t want you to regret this a second time. I can deal with you avoiding and hating me but I cannot deal with you hating yourself for a -decision we both made.”
“I don’t regret it,” he glanced up at me with a look of disbelief. “I don’t know what is going on but I know that I don’t regret it. I’m confused Ryker. On one hand I believe you but on the other hand, I know what I saw. I don’t know what is happening and I don’t want to make this more complicated than it already is.”
He still looked unsure so I sighed. “Audrey comes into my room every morning and I didn’t want her to see us together and start assuming things. I don’t want to hurt our daughter by making her think something is happening and then have her hopes shattered.”
By the time I finished speaking, I expected him to say something but instead, he just stayed there staring at me with wide eyes as if he was shocked. I wanted to ask why he was looking at me like that but I knew it was only a matter of time before he told me by himself.
He crossed the length of the room until he was standing in front of me and then his hand reached out to stroke a stray strand of hair behind my ears. There was a look in his eyes, one that I couldn’t quite put my finger on.
“You said our daughter,” he said after a beat of silence. “I don’t know if you’ve said it before but hearing you say it now. I don’t know how I feel but I loved hearing it.”
“She is your daughter, Ryker,” I said simply. “And if we are going to do this then we have to keep her out of it. I don’t know what’s going to happen after the coronation and I don’t know how we are going to work things out between us but we can figure that out later. For now, I just want to make sure that no one gets hurt.”
“That’s exactly what I want,” he assured me.
This time, he made the move and he k*ssed me. I don’t know how long we stood there in the dead of night with our l*ps speaking multitudes of words for us.
It felt so innocent and pure but also forbidden because the last thing I wanted to do was pull away.
It wasn’t until I heard the clock chime 8 that I pulled back and I remembered that I was supposed to read Audrey a story before bed. Ryker must have been thinking the same thing because he cursed under his breath.
I made sure I was presentable before finally rushing out of the room and into Audrey’s room. She was still awake when we both got there and she had a book waiting in her lap. Her eyes were downcast when I first walked in but when she saw me, she smiled widely and sat up.
Ryker appeared from behind me and it was like her smile grew impossibly wider. I tried to ignore his close proximity and the fact that I was currently dripping wetness between my thighs as I read to my daughter. She giggled the entire time and by the time I closed the book, she was staring up at me with sleepy but happy eyes.
I pressed a k*ss to her nose, “Goodnight Audrey, I love you.”
“I love you too mummy,” she yawned before turning to Ryker. “I love you daddy.”
I saw the physical impact of her words land like a blow on Ryker and his eyes grew wet as he leaned down to k*ss her hair. I could feel every emotion of his through our bond and it felt like I was intruding on such a special moment between them.
“I love you princess,” he muttered against her hair.
He finally pulled away and I stood to my feet. When I shut her door behind us, I turned to Ryker to gauge his reaction and he looked completely stunned as if he couldn’t believe what had just happened.